This is my story of coming to the knowledge of Human Design and "Seven Years of De-conditioning" for Year One (part 1) from June to December 2010.
My Human Design journey began June 8th 2010, when I received a foundation reading from Randy Richmond, but before I get to all of that, I want to share some background information to set the stage.
I have always been interested in astrology, which I studied and gave readings in since about the time of my Saturn return. Actually it was before that, around 1988, when I moved from Kittery Maine to San Francisco. I also studied Tarot and used to give readings on a 900 number. I studied and taught Yoga and graduated from the Iyengar Yoga Institute of SF’s teacher training program in 1995, and studied with BKS Iyengar in Pune India in 1998. My yoga studies included the mechanics of the Chakra system. In 2006, it was the Mayan Calendar that absorbed my need to investigate, which I continued until being found by Human Design, and as you’ll see was the source of many of my vocational invitations. So prior to Human Design I had many different systems that I was using to understand myself, others, and the nature of external energy on life cycles and global cycles. And each time I found a new system, I was consumed in my study, where it became something I worked on daily, and Human Design would be no different.
I became aware of Human Design in May 2010, when my friend Stuart Smith, a classically trained astrologer, informed me that he had found a system he had been looking for, for twenty years. He had heard a pod cast by Genoa Bliven discussing the Human Design system. He told me, it combined astrology with the I'Ching, the Chakra system and the Kabalistic Tree of Life. He told me that he had investigated several analysts and selected Randy Richmond, to get a foundation reading. He then invited me to do the same. So I contacted Randy, a fellow projector, and received my foundation reading on June 8th 2010. He told me "You are here to call people to wonder" and later "You can be useful and helpful, and help fix people."
This is my chart. I am a 5-1 profile, with emotional authority, triple split projector, on the Quarter of Mutation’s Left Angle Cross of Uncertainty.
Randy began the reading with great Projector information like Projectors are “Looking for a life, not a job. Projectors are here to guide the work of other people.” “Projectors see where energy is wasted and make it more efficient. Don’t overwork. You have nothing to prove.” “You see everything. Projectors are here looking for a life. The right kind of life to live. What’s very important to them is who the other person is. Who the other person is. How do they impact me? Because that’s how you’re going to recognize how to be influential.” “We’re not group people. Because we’re a laser beam. We focus on the other. We focus on their G-center. Their identity… the second gate… We have this ability to penetrate the other.” “We devourer the other.” “Projectors need your own space. Especially when sleeping. If you’re sleeping with someone, they are conditioning you in your sleep.” “Projectors hate wasted energy.” “We are very curios people. One of the key notes for a projector is absorbing. We absorb things. We take it in.” We’re “here to be recognized.” “Money is energy. We can get a reputation for over controlling resources. Being cheap. Not true.”
Randy also shared some Human Design gems like “How to be a good passenger in your vehicle. Your vehicle is also your life. What is in Red comes from this planet. It has composition. It is your blood, that’s why it’s in red. What is in black comes from the stars. It is star born.” And…“70% of the neutrinos we receive come from the sun. Neutrinos are sub-atomic particles. They have mass. Their mass is made up of information. Star information. In astrology neutrinos pass through Mars and those neutrinos then pass through you. Leave a some of Mars in you and take a some of you out into the universe. So we’re in this giant information field. We are informed by the universe and we inform the universe. That’s why Venus and Mars and Mercury have an effect. We participate in this universal feed. We also program the universe. To our small extent individually. There are six billion of us. Along with all the other life forms.”
When he discussed my chart he said:
“The 18th gate challenges authority. It also has a fear of authority. Doesn’t want anybody to have authority over you. It’s the ability to say ‘the king has no cloths.’ That can be quite annoying in nice social situations. With the 62nd gate of details you can give people the details of how the king has no cloths.”
I described an ethical issue occurring at my workplace, and Randy responded.
“49th gate of principals and 4th line: a social political agenda. When something is violating principals in a social or political way you are there with your 18th gate going ‘no this is against…’ you know. To say that’s the trouble you get in, oh no, we need people like you. If we didn’t have people challenging the pattern. See the 18th gate. It’s part of the logic circuit. The logic is about patterns. You have an ability to recognize what’s wrong with the pattern.”
These evaluations will set the tone for information that will be described in future episodes of this series.
One of my favorite things Randy said was his insight about giving Human Design readings:
It’s a formula. And I liken it to a musical piece. So the notes are … the little number is the octave the note is played in. It’s a musical piece, it all works together. It’s a synthesis… So, no one part works in isolation. So a lot of people… some kind of analyst, they can give you some kind of rout detail but they can’t put the song together. They don’t even know that it is a song. And one of my jobs with the Human Design system is listening of people who want to be analysts, and either approving them or not. The criteria for that is a very basic one. The worst analyst can tell you something that’s really incredible. Just because he can mechanically go over what’s there. So you can get something from anyone who is a certified analyst in Human Design. I would say to you, that’s not necessary. No one has ever asked me if I was a Human Design analyst. So following that “cursus honorum” is not necessary as far as I’m concerned.
Randy encouraged me to learn the Human Design system, and to provide readings because he revealed “I think you could be good at this…” This began what I would consider a mentor relationship with Randy. He was a tremendous resource to me, as I would e-mail him questions and he would reply "I'm not a typist" and offer to call me. We had many conversations during that time, which at his suggestion, I recorded so I could review the material. All the audio files I will use in this series will be from my personal recordings of those conversations.
The timing of the reading was interesting, as I was being laid off as a school social worker, the following week. My position was being eliminated due to state budget cuts. At this point I was back living in Maine, and had tired of my career and was looking for a new direction, and my foundation reading inspired me to consider giving readings as a potential vocation. I had very limited funds, so being a good projector I looked for free or inexpensive avenues to gain knowledge. After the reading I developed a ferocious appetite for Human Design, and began my investigation into the free media at Jovian Archive, including several live events with Ra, such as "Q and A", "Rave New Year", "Guide to the Movie" and "Guide to the Rave Chart", but more importantly I began my experiment. I also listened to Human Design Voices radio when they offered a free subscription in 2010, that lasted for several months. The timing of HD in my life was also interesting, in that it arrived 9 months prior to my Chiron return.
With my position as a school based clinical social worker eliminated, embracing my strategy and authority meant I could investigate work opportunities (first line profile) and apply if invited to do so (projector), but I believed the right opportunity would come from an invitation for work that pursued me. Being an emotional projector, I had to wait for invitations and then be hard to get on top of that, so my experiment was a total leap of faith into the void, but I was committed. At this time I began some experiments and investigations to understand Human Design as experience.
I reviewed my life looking for experiences I had that were the direct result of accepting invitations. I found that I had many invitations in my life and that some of my most significant life events began with accepting an invitation. I had been invited in and out of a number of relationships. I had jobs I pursued and jobs I was invited to do, and the employment that began with invitations seemed to be the more meaningful. I had been invited to study yoga in India and that turned into a three month odyssey of multiple invitations every day. Like the day I was trying to meet with some fellow travelers in Jaisalmer. The best way to get to Jaisalmer from Jodhpur is to take the train across the desert at night. Unfortunately when I arrived at the train station tickets were sold out for the week to come. So I went to the bus station and bought a ticket for the following day. I returned to the hotel I was staying at, and as I was walking through the garden court yard, an old man sitting at a table motioned me to come join him. He asked me where I was going... (insert India story)
India was an amazing solo journey and I felt like something was guiding and protecting me during the my entire three months of trekking without a plan or partner. I realized I was being constantly invited to do what was correct for me.
Another experiment I undertook as an emotionally defined being, was to spent a week disconnected from everything to watch my emotional wave. I live alone at the end of a long dirt road here in Maine. And being unemployed, I had the time to take a week and purposely not interact with anyone or anything that might influence my emotions. So for a week I didn’t see or speak to anyone. I disconnected from all outside stimulus, so I could watch my emotional wave. I had specific times of day to measure what I was feeling, and my clinical background gave me measurement tools. I found I had a wave pattern of emotions going from hope to despair and back to hope, that lasted between two to three days. From that experiment I developed a certain grounding as I experienced strong emotions, during my years of living my design. My mind would love to come up with all these reasons I feel the way I do, but underneath it I knew the emotional wave mechanics were at work. That was a powerful realization for me.
Another powerful realization I had, was that my mind was in service to others, but what it thought had no bearing on how I should decide what to do my life. That was quite liberating. I felt like I got smarter, because I had more of my mind available to investigate and guide others, because there was no value in thinking about what I needed to do in my life, other than trust the process of following my strategy and honoring my authority.
June 20th, just a few weeks after my foundation reading I was after being invited and participated in my first online classroom experience with Ra Uru Hu, a free event titled “Conditioning, love, mind, Human Design.” It was a thrill hear Ra lecture and to be connecting with people in the online classroom. He started with “It’s always fun for me to have a chance to, give away some of the beauty that’s here in Human Design. And for me what’s important is that I give you something that’s practical. That’s the thing that makes Human Design special, is that it is so incredibly practical. It’s about changing the nature of your life in a way that’s possible. One of the things that is so extraordinary about this process is that everything about who we are as beings is that we are here to be deeply, deeply aware. Not that awareness is supposed to be something that is some kind of bizarre happenstance, that happens once in a blue moon. It’s about what’s natural to us a nine centered beings. Yet to get there you have to deal with the most extraordinary battle of all. It is the thing that is going to determine whether there is going to be a change in your life or not. It all comes down to mind. I don’t think that there really is anything else that stands in your way of you and your life, than your own mind.”
Ra went on to discuss that the mind was good for measurement and as outer authority to commune with the other, but has no place in making decisions in a person’s life. “We have a way mechanically, to be able to experiment and to understand for ourselves, that our mind, in this life, in these vehicles, is not here to be in charge of what happens to us.”
He continued “We have three basic components in Human Design. We have a magnetic mono-poll that sits here in the sternum. In the G-center. It hold us together in the illusion of our separateness. Moves us along our line of geometry. We have a design crystal, that sits here in the Ajna center. The design crystal filters the neutrino steam and out of that come your bio-mechanical mechanism, the vehicle, the life itself. And then in the Head-center, not in the body. It’s why this triangle of the Head-center pierces in that sense, or goes beyond the physical form. That beyond the physical form, above the scalp, is the personality crystal. The personality crystal has never been part of the body. And it’s the personality crystal that ends up being who you think you are, your personality. And who you think you are has nothing to do with the cabal that exists between the design crystal and the mono-poll because they were there before the personality entered the body. They had already built the vehicle. And the vehicle is the life. It is not for the personality crystal to be involved in deciding what this vehicle is going to do. This is the greatest challenge that we have.”
He also discussed how people go down the information rabbit hole and don’t use their Strategy and Authority to live as themselves. “One of the extraordinary things in the knowledge in Human Design, in radical transformation, being able to ultimately watch the mechanism of the way in which your mind operates is a formula. It's only then begins to glimpse that all of yourself, concerned about what your mind brings to you, has only been distortion. Has only led you far away from being the passenger consciousness, that you were incarnated to be. When you’re looking at design, I like simple. If it’s not simple it’s never universal. It’s got to be simple. So many, when the approach Human Design, and when they begin to hear all the numbers, all the lines, the gates, the colors, the tones, the bases, the this, and the that. There is the sense of being overwhelmed with all this information. It’s not about that. All that information is because this is a science. It’s the science of differentiation. And as a science it can only stand on everything being reveled and elaborated in its mechanism. But to take advantage of the knowledge for yourself you don’t have to spend years in study. You don’t, not unless you’re a projector. It’s not what it’s about. And yet at the same time you need to grasp certain basics that are there. They are in and of themselves enlightening.”
Ra goes on to discuss the different ways in which conditioning operates. “This is the beauty for me about what it is to know your design. And what it is to know the design of others. This is the place where love grows. Because this is where you see helplessness. You are what you are. And you either take advantage of it or you get lost in what you’re not. When you get lost in what you’re not, what is there for you. There is a clock, a wheel that turns for everyone. This is a deeply fortunate incarnation if you have an opportunity to transform your life. This is what this journey in Human Design is all about, it’s not about stuff that you can know. It isn’t. It’s about living it. Truly it’s about living it. It’s only in living it, that you really become aware. It’s only in living it, that you get to see for yourself. In your own way. That this will take you where you are intended to go. It’s not something that you can do for anyone else. It’s not something that anyone can do for you. It isn’t. This is about selfishness, enlightened selfishness because this is what it demands. Because you see the journey itself starts simply and gets deeper. It’s not just a matter of you're going to experiment with your strategy and authority, this is about starting your life as yourself. And you’re a baby when you start. And it’s about the day to day challenge of your mind in the world that we live in. Where there are all these things around you and the not-self is everywhere. They are not going to change. Don’t hold your breath for that. See I’m not here to change the world. Neither is Human Design. You know this is just the fantasy. This is about one person at a time. Maybe it’s you. Just one at a time. Because you see, this is a life process. Until you are ready to see what that means, you don’t get there.” My overall impression of this lecture was that conditioning is not something to be avoided and that every openness that you have is your gateway to wisdom. This was a powerful realization for me.
Waiting for invitations was difficult at first, but I was steadfast, and little by slowly they began to trickle in. I got invited to teach some yoga classes, and give some guitar lessons. On July 1st I was invited to give a lecture on the Mayan calendar at the Conway NH library and to study at the Edgar Cayce's Association for Research and Enlightenment (A.R.E.) in Virginia Beach with Barbara Hand Clow and Gregg Braden. On the final day of the workshop, Barbara’s husband, Gary Clow invited me to play some solo acoustic guitar before Barbara and he presented on the “Alchemy of Nine Dimensions,” which was a huge and unexpected honor. All this time, I was spending any free time I had exploring Human Design.
August 15th, after being invited, I participated in my second online classroom experience with Ra Uru Hu, which I recall as being a “Q and A” session where the audience would submit questions in the chat space and Ra would select which questions he would answer. I was honored that he answered my question regarding long term cycles and what information should be highlighted in that type of reading.
Around that time I was also invited out of the “on and off” relationship I had been in for two years. The invitations began to increase as I became more stead fast in following my strategy and authority. I gave many more lecturers on the Mayan Calendar and was invited to play music at various venues during this period of time. I even gave a brief talk on Human Design. I also created the infrastructure for New World Birth. This was the time that the Sun was 88 degrees before my Chiron return. The time of my Design Chiron return: December 2010. And the beginning of my Human Design journey and the beginning of New World Birth.
Thank you for checking out New World Birth. This is "Seven Years of De-conditioning" for Year One part 1. In the next installment I’ll cover Ra’s presentations of "Rave New Year", "Guide to the Movie" and "Guide to the Rave Chart", as well as his passing. My experience with attempting to take “Living Your Design” from IHDS, and eventually taking LYD as a correspondence course with Theresa Blanding, and joining an HD study group. You can check us out on Facebook, Blogger or YouTube. I encourage you to share this information as videos or text as widely as you choose. I invite you to contact me at email@example.com if you have any questions or wish to schedule a reading. If you've been thinking about getting a reading, please contact me, as I would like to provide you a reading during these uncertain times. You will need to be able to either call me in Maine in the U.S.A. or connect with Skype to receive your reading. As always I am blessed that you've taken the time to connect with my passion for these ancient mysteries, their synthesis, and application to our journey during this incarnation. The light in me honors the light in you… Namaste – In Lak’ech - and as Ra would say "love yourself.